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2nd June 2012

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3 facts about my personality

it seems that a lot of people perceive me as a bitch. i guess i don’t “sugar coat” what i say, and i say whatever i am thinking, regardless of how “blunt” it is. i personally think that i am a very nice person, but i guess i don’t come off that way. my mom says i am “brutally honest”.
i don’t really know how to show my emotions vocally. i say what i mean, but i’ve been told that the way i say it is somewhat monotone. whether i am extremely happy or depressed or excited or scared, my tone will probably be the same. i think it makes people think i am lying sometimes because i don’t sound sincere. or sometimes people can’t tell that i am joking, and get offended. that’s why i prefer typing or writing things over saying them, because if you are reading something you will focus on what is being said rather than how.
some other personality traits: i am very loyal. i hold grudges even when i don’t want to. i care a lot about animals. i am often misunderstood. i have battled severe depression and anxiety since i was around 13 years old. i over-analyze. i daydream quite often. i am quite unorganized (but i’m working on it!). i am paranoid. i get obsessed with things easily. if you lie to me, i probably won’t forget it or forgive you. and i am pretty good at detecting lies. i think i have “abandonment issues”. it takes me a while to become comfortable around people i don’t know. i will go to extreme lengths to help a friend in need. i am awkward. i am very self-conscious and i try to hide it by acting overly confident and sassy. i worry a lot. i struggle with self-control. it takes a lot of effort for me to not constantly hate myself. my goal for this year is to accept my own flaws and become more tolerant of the flaws of others.
sorry that was so long….. i’m on adderall…